Home Sweet Home

What are you to do when you notice a friendship changing? Are you supposed to pretend that you don't notice it. Or should you let your friend know that it's time to part ways?

I honestly ask these questions because I have noticed some of my friendships changing. I knew that me going away to college was going to be a growing process for me but I didn't really think of the effects my personal growth was going to have on friends back home. It talking to friends I have been accused of becoming too critical, intolerant, and blatantly rude. I will admit that these are all qualities that I have picked up along with an education. But I honestly do not see anything wrong with it. I have become critical. Critical of doing things that are juvenile or a waste or time, critical of discussign the same teenage antics that we should have all outgrown. And yes critical of the repetive dating habits of my friends. The adage "if at first you don't succeed try, try again," is only true of knocking on doors of opprotunity not for foolishly trying to get your heart broken and subjecting yourself to negativity.

Yes I have become intolerant of pettiness. Intolerant of mediocrity. Intolerant of excuses for lack of progression. Intolerant of your unwillingness to venture out. Intolerant of narrow minds. Intolerant of laziness. Intolerant of comfort zones. Intolerant of assimilation.

My poor attitude and rudeness stems from the lack of mental stimulation that I get from the trivial and trite conversations of my most coveted companions. I feel as though I'm the only one growing and maybe I due own it to school for conditioning me into a socially conscious person who is truly concerned about the world on a larger scale and less concerned at whats going on at 5 points. Maybe it's my fault for wanting to do something with my existence instead of letting the years, and my life, pass by wondering where the time has gone. Or maybe they can blame Essex Hemphill, James Baldwin, Alex Haley, Keith Harris, and Devon Carbado because it is their words that I am reading and taking to heart. It is their writings that have altered my thinking. There words that cause me to ramble on about changing the way I think, we think. It is them who have robbed you of your dear friend.